babe's future

Overall, babe is not suitable to study Ph.D. She doens't like to do research. Reading textbooks making her headache. She is suitable to be a piano or music teacher. She can schedule her timetable. She is free to plan her schedule. Therefore, i should find out some info about working in U.S.

How about being a teacher in U.S.? I don't know if it work. Let's find some info.

refresh my soul

Everyday write a diary to reflect what have done throughout these day.
I got the admission from U of maryland. I am happy with the result. Studying phD In U.S. has always been my dream.
In order to improve my skill in physics, i need to study more.
I have been very worried throughout these day about my application result.
Taking a good rest.


I hope that i can refresh my idea about this world and life everyday. Through reading or anything else. visiting museum, exhibition. Go to country, forest.
Talking with new friend. I find that i am easy influence by environment. I nedd new place so that i can stay fresh .

I hope i can train my body. Health is a very important factor in life.

What lifestyle are you pursuing?
1. fun, happy : reading good books. playing sports game. traveling.

2. meaningful:
3. healthy:
4.



What should life be? earning a lot of money? is money important ? so important to sacrifice my dreams? what 's your dreams? a physicist? why?

What is your ideal physicist?

love physics? why?
love to think about physics? why?
like to ponder and wonder about this world?

丘成桐

有许多很聪明很厉害的人可能是研究生甚至是教授，往往你给他一个问题，他可以很快给 你一个答案，同时是很不错的一个答案。可是很多这样出色的学生或是教授，过了很久以 后，你总会觉得他没有做出很好的成绩出来。问题是，你解决的问题太容易了；没有再花 很多精神去考虑这个问题。尤其在我们中国人最缺乏的，就是在做中学生或是大学生的时 候，没有将一个问题从头到尾仔细考虑清楚，并没有真正的全部了解，这是个很重要的问 题。从一个很小的问题，我们可以引发很多不同而且有意思的问题。思考要自己训练，不 单是在联考或在大学的时候，老师出个题目，你考了一百分就完了，假如这样的话，你很 容易就满足你自己，你不觉得问题有什么意思。往往出名的研究是在很平凡的问题里面， 不停的思考所找出来的，很多人因为很快将问题解决了，便不愿再想下去，所以不能够再 启发新的东西。科学的研究，不是解决人家已经晓得的问题。当一个科学家问一个好的问 题的时候，即是成功的一半。因为科学的推动是从不断的找寻新的问题，新的方向出来的 ，解决从前的问题虽是个重要的推动方向，可是我们还要找出新的方向，而不单是解决从 前的问题。我们知道在物理上解决问题的时候，往往大的或出名的公式是将前面固定的理 论推翻，而找出新的路子。为什么大数学家或大物理学家能够做到这个地步呢？因为他们 不断的问问题。有时候在一般人来讲很明显的问题，在出名的科学家看起来，就不见得很 明显。为什么不明显呢？因为我们有不同层次的问题要一路考虑下去。问问题的能力是一 个很重要的训练，并不是花很多功夫就可做到，我想在我们中国的小学、中学或大学里都 没有很好的做到这一点，我想从小应该做到这一点的。

feel bad

I just wondered my family affected my life a lot.
although i came from a poor family, i really have a good life. I feel inferior in my high school years because almost all my friends are living in a richer family than i have. I feel bad at that time.

Now you are an adult now. I should learn how to endure my inferior feeling.
Ya, no one is perfect.

I don't like the feeling of depending on others. However, have a thick face, ya, i means shamelessness is good for people like me. It doesn't matter as long as you get your things done without hurting yourself.


Second, I have two defects to correct. They are 'careless and casual','delay'.


I feel bad here, don't know why. life without you are nothing.
I would like to go some place to cure myself.

love problem

Let's reflect on the things this week.1. Writing: you didn't spend any hours on it! Please write something!2. recommendation letters: You should go and ask jia to write for you. Please don't hesistate on important things!Eating: i will like to try eating good foods starting from today. exercise:i am panic now. Waiting babe to get up. Our love has too much quarrel. She is hard than me. Everytime we quarrel, i am the one to say sorry, although i think i am doing no wrong. I feel bad. She is always wants to break up after quarrel.

healthy life style

I want to make this week an healthy week.
1. Eat vegetable, if can : since babe has interested in vege food, then let us has
once meal a day in pure vege.
2. buying, eating good product: by this i mean we can go to some place selling
organice food.
3. doing exercise: babe swims once a week. How about you? you should also do
some exercise. Yoga is good and we should continue to do it. How about
jogging? You have the time to do so, ok?
4. sleep early:

New years!!!

The new year is coming! I am staying home because babe has gone to her teacher's house by command.
I hope i can achieve some targets:
1. Building good relations:
I want to have good relations with babe,my family,friends,teacher and people around me. I hope i can become a person who give love frequently and unconditionally and bravely.

2. correct some bad habits.

There are some habits that are not good, as mentioned by babe. There are : smell things, biting fingernails, eating rushly and untidily. Let's get rid of them.

3.

I also have some wishes:

1. I hope that i can have a good relations with babe. I love her very much and i think i should have a long term relations with her in future. I hope that we can stay together even after i go to u.s. I need to plan the things!

2. I wish i can get the admission! The best admission will be the one with scholarship, no matter which school is it. I hope that i have no economic problem while i am studying at there.

3. I wish i can publish my own result in a scientific journal. I have done the research for a long time so i hope i can have a good result.

4. I hope that my family's member can all be healthy. I am worried about grandma and mum and dad. I wish them healthy. for my brothers, I hope them can have good result in their study or work.

Happy new Year!

physics preparation

i was attempted to do something bigger in my life.
What is something great you can do?
1. Presentation is a way for you to share with your fellows and boss your new discoveries and works. More importantly, you can discuss your current problems with them. Therefore, you have to prepare well for your presentation.
2. Foundamental question is very important to you. Therefore start to study Jackson's.

cleaning my room

you feel frustrated because of sound, mind, view has too many rubbish. What are these rubbish? The noise from fan, the untidy desk and room and random thought make me feel annoyed and cannot get to work.

Therefore, let us start to clean our room!

x'mas

x'mas day!
i will go to have good dinner with babe today and will take photo at the east taipei where there are a lot of great x'mas tree! Hope she will feel happy today!

Anything to review?
Ya, first of all, to be a good theoritical physicist, you need now three things: good analytical and numerical technique and knowlege, creativity of solving problems, good command in programming and english.
So, let us work on these three things!

determination to change.

writing diary is good for you. I should try to write more here. Write everything. My thought, my feeling, my idea, my confession, my unspeakable guilt,love,hate,etc.
I should quit game and mastuxxxxxx. The two things is unharmful in general. ONLY they cost your precious time. They are bad if taken as hobby! You don't getting any rest or refreshment from them.

Guitar . Music. reading. YOGA. Even dreaming is good.

Recently two events change my idea about my future career. First of all, the book of ex-director of Microsoft's accomplishment of building school and library in rural area. This story tells me that every person can contribute to this society if he/she has the determination to do it. Second, "An inconvenient Truth" from Al gore, a documentary about global warming, really motivated me to try to contribute my knowledge to help human society.

Therefore, i am very sure that i won't do research in high-energy physics or cosmology. I will like to do research in optics or condensed matter physics, research that have direct contribution to human society.

English conversation

Yesterday's call was a stunning experience for me.
I have called ets about my problem of additional score report. I stammered. I have to think how to organize my words to a sentence before i can speak to her. BAd.
I have to train my english conversation skills. I can listen well. I can summary listening. But i have to get accustomed to talk in english, to communicate well.

love practise

Yesterday night is unforgettable. Babe want to break up with me. She was so serious that my begging was not workable.
1. i have to reread the man from mars book. Learn what she is thinking about, what she needed most.
2. i have to buy her chocolates, cakes or if i can afford, flower, to her when i want to express my excuse. She think that it is an expression of my sincerity.

life without money

Now i have only nt907 inside my bank. I still owe babe 7800+300=8100 nt dollar.
My salary is enough for me to live here. But i still needs fund for my application.

From the event yesterday, I understand babe more now. It is seems like she is tend not to express her real feeling in some cases. She will felt embarassed to do so. Well, then let is be.

I feel hard to get along with her sometimes. She is irrational sometimes. She followed her emotion not mind. This bother me a lot.

I am burst out of application. It is too cumbersome. Ya, it has been a long journey since i started the preparation. Take a rest from it.
But i have to present my best part to the university. Don't give up the last chance and effort to do it.

English Writing

How do i do today?
First, remember to send the application material as early as i can. It is ultimately important. You wouldn't want your 2 years effort to be ruined by your mail delay!

Control Your Life. Make everything in your life contrallable.

I should work hard on my English writing from now on!

don;t procrastina don'r rush!

I dont like the feeling of rushing.
Just now is a total mistake. i dont know whether the gal have help me to put the right things into the right envelope.
Ok, i hope that next time i have plenty time of doing all these things! Don't rush. don't make things rush. so don't procrastinate!
do the scheduled things well!

btw, don't worry. you know the answer tomorrow whether the uni receive the mail. Even you send the wrong material, you can resend! ok!so don't worry!

things to do

In order to success in future, few things have to put in effort now.
1. human relations:
Babe said that i was poor in my handling of relations with other person around me. I agree on this. And this is important for me to sustain a healthy life, not only for being success in future. Therefore i need to make some effort.
a. reading books on how to improve.
b. find out what is my problems.
c. practise everyday.

2. english
you are good at listening and reading already. Now is the time to practise other two skills: speaking and writing. How to improve?
a. write more: write diary everryday. write report properly. write everything properly and grammatically right.
b. consult on books: learn how to write better.
c. speak more: speak about your research in english. practise speaking with babe.

3. programming skill
I need to have the skill of writing program since i am going to be a theoritical physicist.
Mathematica and fortran should be your priority. Matlab and linux is the second things.

some plan, some idea.

The deadline of ohio and arizona is coming. what things i haven finished?
1. finance
2. report
3. sop

Ok. give me a deadline. finished them before next week!

Doing research has been my passion. just keep on doing it.

Being honest is a very important virtue. Please always remember it! No matter what outcome you think may happened, be honest is always the best method you can apply.

I hope that i can learn fortran and enhanced my skill in computational physics. If i study theoritical physics in U.S., there are a must and you can save time in america when you learn all these things.

month activity fortran mathematica
11 for application 1,2 1
12 for application 3,4 2
1 english speaking 5,6,7 3,4
2 8,9,10 5,6
3 11,12,13 7,8
4 14,15
5
6

i am considering to do social work. I think it will be the best experince i can have. good suggestion?

tendency to positve thinking!

i hope that i can now start again writing diary daily. so that i can regain my power here. I can reflect on what i met and done today.

Ok. I should abandon my tendency of avoidance important thins. i like to procrastinate especially on things i don't like to face. Change this tendency!

I will work hard on everything now. although i don't earn a lot here, i feel very happy here. i understand that doing research is very interesting things to me and i hope that i can carry on doing it. 

earn money!

It is been a long time since the last time i was writing at here.
Now has been the time of applying university.
I feel so sad when i was thinking about my family. I hope that i can earn my phd in 3~4 years so that i can contribute my effort helping my family. I want to earn money to support my brother's education. I want to give them better chance to success. Give them a better living enviroment.